`missing you is all i can do.

Tuesday, July 18, 2006

someone in friendster deleted me in his/her friends list.
its ur loss. lol
i'll try to find out who when im free and in a can be bothered mood
hahaha

i was late for dfund again cos i gotta miss e bus as it was too packed, i cudnt squeeze up o matter how thin i am. ate at engine durin break, as usual. im quite sick of e food there but my fren is still eating frm e same store, same dished since school started. even wendy was so sick tt she decided to just eat snacks.

i dont know wats wif sasi durin lec, ahah. he cahnged e slides so fast when i havent finish copyin and halfway thru, he just packed up and left. we dint know wad ws gg on. haha.
sorry miss/mrs whatever- your- name-is. i bought a pack of chips too munch on so tt i wun sp in ur lec, but it dint help. e lights, e aircon, ur voice, made me doze off. till i receive a call t woke me up, i continued copying feeling energised for e nxt few mins. haha i shud receive more calls nxt time

i went home, wanted to slp for an hr b4 gg macs, but i dint realise my fone awas on silent mode. and my mom woke me up at 10. another day wasted. i must go to macs frm tmr onwards! there are too many distractions at home. ive gt many tests coming up, project to complete. not forgetting spending time wif frens, meetin up on fri, a day for chomp chomp, movies, work.

i must study, dont want to dissapoint ppl ard me. but i gt a feeling i will at this rate im going im rarely optimistic. hmmm.
i shud had retoook my o's with belle when she was tryin to persuade me.i need someone to study together, go free access lab together, but i doubt anyine is interested? how i wish i cud study wif ppl like in sec sch, i need someone ehos learning same stuffs as me :((

i was just sitting here thinkin of stuffs.
wat i want to be in e future?
i really dont have anything in mind
but definitely, not an engineer.

thinking bout e past when u made me stronger than before. realising e real me. doing this which i never thought i will, or i could.
e hug tt i always wanted, till now. though its only a hug, but it takes alot of courage for me to do so.

now, i see history repeating itself.

i may not be e best, i may be misunderstood
i know i cannot be tt someone
u expected me to be
but i am still me
still that same out-of--tuned key.

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