`missing you is all i can do.

Wednesday, July 12, 2006

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sucks.
im so confused
im so lost.
help.

handed in our wrtoral project ytd. finally, dont hafta to research on e robot stuff. but there'll be an individual oral presentation coming up, must prepare powerpt slides. i dont haf microsoft and imnt good at doing powerpt la, dont rly know how to use it. haiyo, how. its graded somemore.

paid sch fees ytd too. thousand over lei. if i quit sch, ill waste tt sum of money. i see myself handlin e cash to e person, heart pain. regretted coming to tp.
lets see.
if i go nyp-
pros.
i can save money on transport, can jus buy a bike and cycle there
attend more lessons
sleep more
save travelling time
cons.
not much frens
studyin almost same stuff
doing those experiments
if i cant survive in engineering, den quit again?

rp-
pros.
no hw or exams
no need to study so much
can do other courses
nt very far frm my hse
e other two shall not be named! :D

cons.
daily tests?
daily presentations?
need laptop
lesser frens
rp? majority wud advise not to.

ckt today. e teacher reminds me of our ss teacher la, mrs tan? haha. dint know how to do oe experimnets la, she sorta realised i don understand a thing too. quided me along and ask me many qns. simple qns tt i cudnt ans?she ask me why i look so scared. haah. she kinda said its common sense and all. keep repeating. okay, ive gt no common sense -_-
ask this and that, sayin its pri sch maths. but i sorta understand a little on wads gg on alr la. shes quite a nice teacher actually, but her lecs is one of e sure slp one and i don like ckt. mus tell myself, its interesting! yeah right sherry. haha
aft lab, she asked if im okay, i said shud be i guess. haha. suddenly, ive gt an urge to ask her smth. iask' can i ask u a qn? is nyp or tp engine better? " haha, i rly wanted to know
she said tp.. blah blah... mmm. perhaps i;ll jus stay in tp la. hopefully can get gd grades and go nyp 2nd yr.

aft apel, went bus sch wif eugene to find jer, cos i cudnt contact her. we went to each occupied cls to see if she's there. level three to six. first cls i peeped, saw angie, second cls. tat. haha. in e end cudnt find, eugene said we've tried our best. hahaa. so i left to design to find jayne.

went e com lab there, use com, make noise.went wif her grp for this marketing lesson. e teacher is damn funky. went to eat at design, meet jer. so she was slpin earlier on.went back to cont eatin. e apron also no use takin it today alr, quite complicated la. shud had jus save e trouble and ask huiwen to buy her own stuff herself. now im afraid kenny's shirt too big for me. he thought it was L and realised tt its actually XL? oh my, i hope its alright.

the spectaculars! vote for jay! but i dont rly like his singing today. vote for gayle too! haha. so wierd seeing her on tv. but she's not bad la, better than a few others.i guess e top 3 will be jonathan, paul and rahimah? haha. i dint place any vote for any of them though. haha.

aft much hesitation, my mom decided to enrol my sis in ij.
hopefully, she wont follow my footsteps.
but they'll be gg at 2 plus tmr, i think i'll go sch instead. cos we'll be doing drilling tmr, its been yrs since ive done d&t. eyer, drilling.

oh well, i thought i cud see her tmr.
mei you ni wo zhi neng huo zai hui yi li mian

brainstorming time.
dont bother tryin to figure out. its a mixture.
haha. just some random words in my head.
using me?
alike story
one sided
suck at this kinda thing
like e past
havent i learnt
a repeat
hard to control
trust
tentative
why
mbo mbo!
soon soon!

if i could have just one wish
i wud wish to wake up everyday
to e sound of your breath on my neck
e warmth of ur lips to my cheek
e touch of ur fingers on my skin
and e feel of ur heart beating with mine
knowin tt i cud nv find tt feeling
with anyone other than you.

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